after

i’ve cried all the tears
i needed to cry –
i almost drowned in them.

i’ve thought all the thoughts
i needed to think –
half-afraid i’d go mad.

it’s time to move on,
forward,
away.

it’s time
to think of the future
ahead.
of unmade plans,
unvisited places,
unmet people,
unexperienced events.

no regrets,
no wonderings,
no what-ifs.
the moment is over for those.

only hope,
anticipation for what could be,
the daybreak is filled with these.

i curl myself around myself.
content with the me that i am.
exhilarated at the being i will be.

i look ahead as i gaze behind.
i smile wistfully,
in this after – i am enough.

Circa 2003

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